I have been thinking for quite some time about either closing up this little blog or changing the focus. I still love all of the things I've ever loved however; I am finding that the purpose for the next phase of my life is different from what I have been doing.
My youngest will be in all-day kindergarten next year. I feel bittersweet about it. I have been mothering full-time for nearly 8 years. All of a sudden, I will be mothering part-time. From 8-3 they will be gone at school. This frees up my schedule quite a bit. I could take the Iowa bar exam and practice law, I could find a job in another field, I could do nothing, I could volunteer, etc.
But after praying about it for 6 months, I feel confident that I will probably spend my free time teaching women's Bible studies. I know some of you are rolling your eyes. I rolled my eyes when I first thought about it. I am not perfect. I have not always cared about what God wanted for my life. If you and I were friends in college and law school, you would attest to this. But that is part of what I love about my faith. I don't need to be perfect, just willing. My life is real and I want to share it.
I have found that my legal education helps as I study the Bible. I love researching and chewing on scripture until I feel content that I understand what it says. Applying those concepts is not always easy but I love the challenge. If life were easy, we would all be bored.
I get lost in time when I study. I could read all day, every day, if only the kids didn't need a chauffer, laundry didn't need to be done, meals didn't need to be made and the house cleaned itself.
Teaching is new to me. Greg encouraged me to try it because he thought I had the personality for it. He is a wonderful, popular teacher, so I trust him. I taught my first Bible study last summer. I found it to be exhilarating. I felt like I was "home," if that makes any sense. It came naturally to me, the ladies devoured it and I realized I could do it full-time for the rest of my life and be totally fulfilled. I get to pray earnestly, research intently, think deeply and then communicate honestly.
Of course, it doesn't pay, LOL. I will be driving a Honda for the rest of my life. And I am okay with that.
So, I am contemplating the purpose of this blog. I've read many books lately that I would love to share with you. I've studied the Bible a lot; I would love to share that too. The blog will always have a personal element because I love sharing my life with you. But I will be transitioning my focus. I hope that you will find it interesting and honest.
Thank you for reading, friends,
PS I have now lost nearly 25 pounds! I need to take a photo of myself but I can't find my camera. It's around the house somewhere. Anyone else ever lose things?